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It told Orange this,.... It questioned him about a question that he realized.. the question was whats the point?? he thought.. thinking why am i this high?? why did i received it?? why must it be me?? not other people? i am just as useless.. he thought ... .. He thought to himself that why did i do this for.? it is really no point to get this sort of gift.. a gift hard to control, a person that will fail the giver... he thought to himself thinking that the gift that he have is a failure to him...... having so much to care.. having the ability to use 2gift but only use 1 well and can't control the other... He thought why was he chosen to receive this gift?? won't thing he better if he don't have this gift?? Orange thought to himself..... he felt as he saw that things will be better if he had not received this gift.. not wanting to be sucked in to it.. wanting to control it, but in the end having the lack to control it.... he thought to himself... how useless he is.. he thought,, why did he bother? he should not have been the one to have it but then other's should instead why chose him?? he was not ready and now lost control of it... he thought as he dare not want to look at this gift again.... how useless how idiotic how much a jerk is he... he thought things will deffinately be better without him having it..


i guess i just lost control over it........i think i should just give .. i lost it..my confidence